Life Is Good.=]

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ohh i can't wait.

to start over again.

to reach for my goals and dreams.

to be happy, thankful, and carefree.

to have more love and passion for life.

<3

mElJo

well. tonight, i printed my make-up forms and my ERI results. i found my ped's project draft and my other papers that are important for my board exam application. yes i'm trying. haha. nclex reviews are a drag tho. i barely have time for anything else. i need to wake up early tomorrow so i can make spam musubi's. ohh mann.

someone save me.

..there.

i don't think i can get any straightforward-er than that. i just can't open up to anyone else.

i don't know if i'm over him. i'm pretty sure i am. it's just that, there are things i can never forget.

or i'm probably just not into the guys that i'm talkin to.

but why? they are nicer than him, in some ways better than him.

it's just hard.

my whole life is still on hold because of him.

i know he's not hiding at the bottom of every shot i take, or

at the bottom of any banana cream pie blizzard that i eat.

whatever.

"if you got nothing good to say, shut the fuck up."

and i will not say how hurt i am.

i will not say how i feel.

and how much i'm suffering.

because i am a woman, and i am strong.

and when everything else fails, i'll still hold my head up.

for that's when you know

when people actually care.

it's when you act like everything's okay.

but really, nothing is working out.

they take the time to find out what's wrong.

you don't need to tell them you're not okay.

you don't need to tell them you need help.

they just know. and feel.

they understand.

no questions asked. no need to explain.

they take things as they are.

and i am disappointed.

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ohh i am soo giddy for me and him! i saw him and i almost melted from his smile. hahah like i got nothing else to talk about right. haha i aced my tests last wednesday, bringing my grade up to an 87. hah i need to work on my maternity grade. anyway, i drove from tanforan to gracel's house earlier. i'm soo happy. haha well it's friday tomorrow! no work!

i want hot chocolate.

=]

mElJo

..finally..

after how many years, i can finally say

i don't feel the need or desire to go back in time.

i'm leaving the past and i'm ready to forget everything.

well that is..

everything that needs to be forgotten.

mElJo

..so there's this guy.

and i'm attracted to him.

what to do?

mElJo

..i'm havin a really hard time studyin recently. i just can't start studying! whats up with that? i don't know why i'm getting lazier each day. it seems like college is not my priority anymore and that is bad. prolly coz graduation is less than a month away. arrghh. whatever. anyway, they lowered down my monthly payment by $50! hah. extra money for me. and guess who got a refund from school? i did. lol. money over the weekend. yay. i guess i pay my student loan early each month. idREALLYk. so yea. not much has happened this weekend although i feel blessed for having a wonderful family and cousins. i spent the weekend with them after work. we watched sex and the city the movie, diary of the dead, and wall-e. i drove around the area too. yay i think i'm getting better hah. it's about time right? i also found out that chevron stopped carrying my favorite snickerdoodle drink and replaced it with pumpkin spice. oh mann i almost went crazy inside the store. but its ok. it's almost the holidays. they're prolly gonna start caryying eggnog or mint hot chocolate after halloween. i bought my first christmas gift today too. and i wrapped it once i got home. i think it's never too early to go christmas shopping. haha.

..yay for christmas. =]

..toodles. =]